Saturday, January 25, 2014

Positivity Boosters.

Lately, I've been seriously distracted by ANYTHING. It reminds me of when I was a little girl, that even when I wanted to pay attention to something that I was interested in, I would get distracted by even the simplest of things. Over time, I've learned to stay focused but recently I've been going a little out of my way.

Just a few hours ago I caught myself watching fan made videos about Tom Felton/Draco Malfoy set to pop songs like Cascada's "Bad Boy" (GOD, what is wrong with me?! Hahaha).

I started to wonder about the reason I may be procrastinating so much lately, and I came to the conclusion that I'm actually stressed out. Some times when we feel like we have too much on our plates we start making excuses for completing tasks at another time or simply not doing them. The root of this problem is that I'm stressed out and even though I know that, I still keep writing goals on my daily to-do lists and overwhelm myself with activities. And after I feel overwhelmed, I consequently start feeling the negativity invading my thoughts and actions. It is a terrible vicious cycle that has to be stopped right now.

So, at this moment I may need to relax. I feel like I can function better when I am calm and have a clear mind. There are a bunch of little things I like to do so I can relax for a while and then tackle my goals. Of course the first and main one is to write my thoughts down and go over them. Organizing my time and my tasks really does help.

Here are the other activities or "Positivity Boosters" that I think work best for me. Everyone can have different ones but the point is to find something that you like doing and takes your mind off things for a little while.

1. I'm a huge bookworm, and I really do believe in what JK Rowling once said; "Books are proof that humans can perform magic...". There is something so captivating about reading a great book and getting completely involved in the story. It's a great way to relax and put your real world thoughts on hold.

2. Indulging in your favorite drink is probably a great way to feel better. I for one, am addicted to Diet Coke, which I know is terrible but I'll stop one day, ha! Anyway, a nice cup of tea or coffee while you read can be just what you needed.

3. I know that taking naps can be complicated. Like when you wake up from one and don't even know what day it is. But if you schedule an alarm it can be pretty satisfying. Forgetting about everything for an hour or so can really make you feel ready to take on everything when you wake up.

4. Eat some chocolate. (WARNING: another Harry Potter reference.) I remember that in Harry Potter when a Dementor came around it was said by Lupin that if you ate some chocolate you would feel better. Dementors are like depression and they bring you down. Since chocolate is a natural mood booster it should definitely calm your nerves. Speaking from experience by the way.

5. Listening to music which you relate to or just LOVE can make you feel instantly better. Listening to something relaxing or something familiar can also boost your mood.

6. Pampering myself is something in which I really do spend a lot of time on. I like feeling clean and polished and that makes me feel relaxed. Taking a long shower or bath is such a luxury and I think everyone should take some time to do so.

7. Finally, watching one of your favorite movies or TV shows can also make you feel at peace. Since like reading, it takes your mind off any real life situations you may want to take a break from.

These are some of the things that help me relax, like I said they can be different depending on the person. Feeling well is something so important that I think it needs to take up more time in busy people's lives. Taking care of ourselves can sometimes be a little underrated.

*kisskiss* - Adrienne.

Blog design/template.

I am freaking out right now. I actually have been freaking out for the last two weeks or so and I think that's why I had not posted anything.

I normally don't need much motivation to do what I like to do (blogging), but I feel there's a serious problem with my blog. The first design or template I set for it, was very nice and the colors played along with each other really well. But as any other normal person, I was bound to get tired of only one design for some time and crave upgrades. And so I did, I decided I wanted to change various aspects; the general background, the font, and even the color of the text.

Anyway, I seem to be unable to do so. I've already sent multiple messages to whoever is in charge of these blogs but I haven't seen any change since. I will wait hopeful however, until I am allowed to change the template of my oh-so-beloved blog.

Until then, I guess I do like the current background, but the font...not so much. Oh well, no more complaining ha!

*kisskiss* - Adrienne.

Friday, January 24, 2014

Not too personal.

Since I started this blog I knew what I wanted it to be more or less. It would be a blog which is meant to tell my story in some way and share my experiences with others. I give my opinion and insight in different topics and until now, it's been like that.

I was thinking the other day that a personal blog can be something you need to handle very carefully. Since it is likely other people will be reading it, you have to consider what to post and what not to post. Self expression is a lovely thing, as long as you do it in a smart way. 

I like sharing stories and experiences about my life on this blog, but I do think that I need to keep the extremely personal stuff to myself. We live in a world in which anything you say or do can end up on public territory. And it is so easily shared, that avoiding causing conflicts with other people is something delicate. 

From now on, more than sharing my feelings or exactly what I think about something I will only share what I've learned from it. 

Good night, lovely people. 

*kisskiss* - Adrienne. 

Monday, January 6, 2014

Growing Up (a.k.a. Birthday Girl)

Oh. Sweet. Lord.

I'm turning 21 this Thursday. That sentence in itself is enough to freak me out right now. As everyone has sometime experienced, I don't even know how to feel about growing up. I think to myself; "Growing up? God, no. I'm an adult, I have been one for this whole last year." How? I don't know, life just happens.

I am tempted to sometimes feel like I want to freeze or slow down time, but then I remember that the future really excites me. And part of that excitement is feeling anxious about what's about to come. I have so many amazing things planned out for myself that the thought can sometimes be overwhelming.
A lot of women stop feeling excited about their birthdays because well, we are getting older every year. But I think that getting older involves gaining strength and experience. Growing wiser with every moment that goes by. I mean, I know 21 is not even "old". But it certainly is a transitioning age. The age you have to reach to be legal in every country. To drink and gamble in America and what not. An age in which you are kind of expected to have your life together.

I was talking to my little cousin the other day. She was born when I was 10, and ever since she's been like a little sister to me. I even got to change her diapers and feed her when I was like 11. She's ten years old right now, and I can't seem to help but feel plain scared when she talks about people my age. She asked me when I was planning on getting married...
My response? I was dead silent. I don't even have a boyfriend. And not currently looking for that kind of thing. It just amazes me that she sees me like this full grown woman. Am I the one who's wrong here? Or maybe it's just that she (in her ten year old mind) sees me as someone who's been through so much.
I still feel like I'm learning so much, and I sometimes even feel like a teen still. But I guess that when I was ten years old I saw people who were 21 as like big business people or something. I do not intend on getting married anytime soon or GOD FORBID popping out babies.

Definitely ready for some delicious birthday cake.

The thing is, time really does fly. One moment you're begging your mom to let you go out on the weekends and the next, your idea of a great night is watching an awesome movie or maybe reading your favorite book while drinking hot cocoa. This year, I really want it to be special. And maybe it's just because of the pressure I KNOW everyone feels on birthdays (wanting everything to go exactly the way you imagine it) but I am really looking forward to wearing my best smile and giving it my all. It is after all, MY SPECIAL DAY.

Now, let the celebrations begin! Also, I need cake.

*kisskiss* - Adrienne.

Sister Bond.

I think in life, there is nothing more important than family. You don't choose family but in some magical way, family seems to choose you. Not even one family in this world is perfect, they all have different flaws and problems. And because they're the people whom you feel closest to, sometimes it's quite easy to get mad at them.
But even through the hard times, at the end of the day they are the ones who've known you your entire life and whether you like it or not, they will be there for many years more to come. Maybe you don't get along with every single member of your family, there are bound to be some exceptions. But still, I don't think there is something as unique as sharing a laugh with your family at the Christmas dinner table. 

This brings me to the one person who has undoubtedly been there EVERY SINGLE TIME. My sister. Highs and lows, ups and downs, laughs and even some snide comments. She is my favorite person in the whole world. She's my best friend. And not only because I don't have to explain the situation I have with the new guy I like (she knows it by heart), but because we share a bond that is even beyond friendship. Sisterhood. It's even kind of psychic. 

My sister and me as little girls. I was always the weird one ha! (right).

We can honestly laugh for hours since we share the same kind of dry humor, but even though we may be very similar in many ways, our personalities differ even more. 

We're opposites in a lot of things and I think this makes our bond even stronger. There are times when neither one of us can stand the other and God, there are even some times I just want to slap her across the face. But she is also the only person I know that I can't stay mad for more than 10 minutes.
My sister (left) and me (right) in Las Vegas.

Our teenage years were perhaps the most difficult, being that we were both in them at the same time (my sister is just a year younger than me). But this last year, we grew closer as ever. And I honestly can't thank God enough for that. New traditions and memories added to the bunch of the ones we have collected through the years. 

Again, my sister (left) and me (right) in Las Vegas.

This year my sister starts college and she's going out of town for four years. This may be the biggest challenge we've faced when it comes to our relationship. I will miss her like crazy, I already do. Still, I am sure this will be a great learning experience for both of us and an opportunity to grow in ways we haven't until recently. Not to mention that every time we see each other now, every moment will be even more treasured. 

Recently, Disney released an animated film called FROZEN. It's about two sisters who lose their parents and realize they only have one another for the rest of their lives. The older sister has a magical ice power that she can't control very well, and for this people fear/dislike her. But her younger sister knows who she really is. 
Elsa (left) and Anna (right) the sisters in Disney's new movie FROZEN.

I have not seen this movie, but I just can't wait to watch it. It reminds me of my sister and me (and the ice power being like my illness.) 

Elsa (the older sis) and her ice power in the movie; which reminds me of my illness. 

Even though I haven't seen one single scene of the movie, I already learned every song (LET IT GO BY DEMI LOVATO? DONE!) and I think I even know how it ends. The reason I haven't seen it is because in Mexico, not a lot of small children speak English, so naturally the movie is in Spanish. But I'm not used to watching movies in any language other than English, so I'm waiting for the internet or (sigh) DVD release.

There are so many wonderful things about the relationship I have with my sister that I cannot possibly list all of them in one single post! She is kind of my life companion and I know I will always have her, and she will ALWAYS have me. 

What about you? Do you share special bonds with your siblings?

*kisskiss* - Adrienne. 

Friday, January 3, 2014

Thoughtful Friday Morning.

Mornin' lovely peeps!

These are a few of the things I'm thinking about right now while I drink my coffee and contemplate on what to wear today...

Breaking Bad.
About a week ago, I realized how addictive a TV show can really be. I mean, all my life I've been a huge fan TV shows. Especially TV shows like, Gossip Girl, LOST, The Walking Dead, That 70s Show, Supernatural, American Horror Story, The Big Bang Theory and so on. I almost always catch up on one of them and watch them for a period of time. But I think this time, I went overboard.
People would recommend Breaking Bad so much to me, that I convinced my mom and my sister to watch the pilot episode.

Dear Lord.

I didn't know what I had gotten into. IT WAS SO GOOD. I mean, the plot is great. But the characters -and not to mention the way the actor's play them- is just magnificent. It's literally falling-off-the-edge-of-your-seat good. And honestly, Aaron Paul ( Jesse Pinkman) is just plain YUMMY. Packed with nerve wracking action and super funny scenes, I fell in love with it.
The series is made of 5 seasons. I am not kidding when I say I finished the whole thing in about two weeks maximum. I am so obsessed, I find ending whatever sentence with the b**** word hilarious!
 Naturally, I was broken-hearted when it finally ended and joined the rest of the world in our post-Walter White/Heisenberg suffering.

I used to think I had some kind of "cold weather resistance". But sadly, I don't. I am freezing to death down here, and I live in Mexico! Seriously, it is extremely cold. And the worst thing  is that it keeps raining, so not only are you soaked if you go out, but you also get to freeze your butt off. I've been inside a lot, like A LOT. The heater turned on and drinking coffee or anything that will soothe my apparent developing frost bite. I think today is a bit warmer, but if the sky starts pouring rain again I wouldn't be surprised. It's like the weather can't make up its mind.

Being weird.
Throughout my whole life, I've always known I'm not an average person. This meaning that I am a little awkward. I actually tend to to walk on the border of plain random. But it honestly doesn't bother me one bit. I like being different. I like never getting bored with myself and always finding out new things. A lot of people consider it to be a flaw I guess, although I really do think there are bigger problems out there than being a bit louder than other people. Still, this last year was a huge learning experience. And I matured a lot. I changed in some ways, maybe I'm a little less childish. But I know my personality will not fade. No matter what the circumstances are, I intend to only move forward and keep being myself. And honestly, that's the whole point of living.

Birthday coming up. 
My next birthday is coming up, and OH MY GOD there are only 6 days left! Eek! I obviously feel super excited but at the same time nervous because this year, I turn 21. Shoot me, right? Time has gone by so fast that my last birthday feels like it was just a couple of months back. I don't know how to feel actually. 21 means you are legal in EVERY EXISTING COUNTRY and I'm not sure if I'm ready for those kind of implications.

Well, these are more or less my thoughts for the moment but I will be posting today again.

*kisskiss* - Adrienne.